fatima | 吾与吾神之爱同在

听着《王的男人》的主题曲(李仙姬的《姻缘》，上传到自己空间了)，只觉得一个荡气回肠辗转缠绵。偏偏又在读中島みゆき几首歌的歌词，顿时就这么化成灰的心都有。

和Rin为了她预定的结婚贺礼讨价还价(笑)，最后说是一人一半合写一篇。(我的理由是，和别人合写比较可以保证我真的把那文写出来。Iris和冰炎结婚那次就是惨痛教训----挖了两个坑也有动手开写，但最后还是不成。)

忽而想起我脑袋里面有两个原著背景中长篇KS构思，写出来会绝对不错，但也会绝对让我不得好死。当然我本来也就写不出来那么长的东西，汗。而且另外还答应了Rin明年生日给她写篇非悲剧的东西。HE的文我还真是没怎么写过(ORZ)，这一次……这一次努力不写BE而已。

啊我的欠债单子又加长了……为什么啊为什么……抱头痛哭ing

注：这次极萌某个葡萄牙语的题目：Nada pode me separar do amor de Deus----没有什么能够把我和神的爱分开(吾与吾神之爱同在)。(这是F1初代车神Ayrton Senna的墓志铭。今日发现此人还有一美人侄子Bruno Senna……)

The Gardener (41)
Rabindranath Tagore

I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you; but I dare not, for fear you should laugh.
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.
I make light of my pain, afraid you should do so.
I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you; but I dare not, being afraid that you would not believe them.
That is why I disguise them in untruth, saying the contrary of what I mean.
I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.
I long to use the most precious words I have for you; but I dare not, fearing I should not be paid with like value.
That is why I give you hard names and boast of my callous strength.
I hurt you, for fear you should never know any pain.
I long to sit silent by you; but I dare not lest my heart come out at my lips.
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart behind words.
I rudely handle my pain, for fear you should do so.
I long to go away from your side; but I dare not, for rear my cowardice should become known to you.
That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your presence.
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.