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推算事情：宇智波带土还爱旗木卡卡西吗？
推算结果：星移斗转去，兰里欣欣回
（寒云：本来看到卡某人杀了琳就不爱了，但是自从又见面了就……………）

推算事情：带土和卡卡西最后会怎么样？
推算结果：参居于西，商居于东，虽有方位，永不相逢
（某蝶：……………够带感！）

推算事情：火影何时可以画完？
推算结果：堪愁堪忧，大被蒙头，睡而不醒，醒而云游
（某蝶：大笑三声！）

推算事情：卯之花和更木这个CP有前途吗？
推算结果：天复地载，万物仰赖，鹤鸣九霄，声闻雷音
（？？？）

推算事情：Harvey和Mike的结尾如何？
推算结果：以卵撞石
（………………………………………………………………………………）

推算事情：Castiel和Dean会怎么样？
推算结果：绿水因风皱面，青山为雪白头，诸般皆出天造就世上水
（某蝶：好文艺啊。）

推算事情：Merlin要怎样才能和Arthur重逢？
推算结果：寸步难行
（寒云：这一定是说Merlin需要守在Arthur旁边寸步不离！！！）

推算事情：Balder是不是万年炮灰？
推算结果：获罪于天无所祷也
（某蝶：我操！！这个太狠了吧！！！！！！！）

这几天在莫名其妙地倒时差+养病。接下来的几天里会可预知地苦逼一把。

昨天傍晚就睡着了，清晨四点醒来，发现一夜无梦。于是现在精神倒是不错，只是心情仍然不佳。有的事情，怎么说呢……大概还是不说比较好。反反复复总是想提醒自己：自省，自省，再自省。别人的悲剧和过失，将来未必就不是自己的。(罗格纳司令您就是因为在某女王的王宫前的那一句话而成为我FSS本命的。) 再多的明白，再多的理智，也拦不住人自己把自己给埋了的决心。

Anyway, I miss Dean/Cas. I miss Cas. I miss Cas terribly.

Also: Took a glimpse at the new One Piece chapter. Trafalgar Law's new look is even more awesome than his old look. Hmmm Trafalgar Law.... He's like an understated psycho version of Zoro, which is interesting. I'd be a lot more comfortable with him without the Nazi-esque (Josef Mengele) connections though. Obviously it's a very superficial connection and normal people just overlook it, but after Yad Vashem, everything and anything Holocaust, however remote, is just.... (I wonder if that's why I couldn't really get into the X-Men First Class fandom? Because of Erik's past?)

I need to go into the city on Saturday to have a meeting. Really, really not looking forward to that. -_- Oh well.

Watching Hot N' Cold (Cas & Dean fanvid) made me realize that I really, really miss Castiel. T_T

I know, I know, I should be watchiing the new episode of Sherlock. But it's like I have a mental block or something. Sigh.

Supernatural S6 ending is pretty much....a whole bullet train's worth of WTF.

But oh, my heart just breaks for Castiel.

I had wanted to do a proper reaction post, but this is all I can say, really.

The world is supposed to be ending today according to some. I just want to know—if you get raptured, can I have all your stuff?

So I've been trying to read Balthazar/Castiel fics and, alas, find myself unable to enjoy any of them.

I'm a Castiel fangirl, but a lot of the stuff is really over the top, even for me. Letting the universe (and other characters) bending over itself for your favorite character is a form of Mary Sueism, because the stuff becomes so OOC (though I am aware that I'm talking about Supernatural) that they might as well be considered OCs in familiar skins anyway.

Dean is not fervently in love with Castiel. His life is too fucked up at the moment (admittedly it has been a very long moment) for him to be fervently in love with anyone. I like Dean Winchester for a lot of things, but his romantic life is fucked up and he is a mess in that respect. Castiel's angel mojo isn't a complete magic cure for that, no matter what most D/C fics out there seem to imply.

And Balthazar is not cuddly nor saccharine. He's unexpectedly sweet at times, but he is not about to make a tender love confession to Cas. No, really, he is not.

But then again, this is Supernatural, some morbid crossover between a soap opera and a grand fandom experiment. It defies logic in every sense of the word. (Not that fandom has ever been about logic.)

Still I ask myself, why do I want to write Balthazar + Castiel gen kid!fics? Why? I blame Sebastian and Misha.

While in the Edinburgh Castle, I brushed briefly on my scanty knowledge of Scottish royal history. Then I decided to look up James I, the son of Mary, Queen of Scots. Old Bessie might have chopped his mum's head off, but that didn't prevent him from ascending the throne and uniting England & Scotland (and Ireland too, but diff story). I've always thought it's one of the great ironies of British history.

And oh Lordy, what did I find but this James was that James, the one with George Villiers to his credit. (History = gossip in so many ways.) Upon reading this time though, I found one Esmé Stewart in his life. And it's a bona fide tragic love story.

I just had to go and turn it into Dean/Castiel. Except not so tragic, given the nature of Castiel.

( Forsaking your God and family for that man? Check. Secret correspondence? Check. Embalmed heart? Check. )

Going to London & Edinburgh tomorrow. Bye Ireland, until 5/10~

So the plan is to meet up with Miss Aki & Asuka and visit Sherlock Museum, then...hang around (TM). I'm thinking a stroll down Thames, with Whitehall and all that. Now in retrospect I probably should have flown directly to Glasgow in Scotland but, as they say, hind vision is 20/20.

Still not all that sure what I will be doing in Scotland exactly, day-to-day wise. I'm sure I'll figure it out once I arrive though. Hostels are pretty awesome like that.

In other news, I'm trying to finish this Claire!Castiel fic I started last year since I found it on this laptop. It's massively AU, of course, but I think I can make it a coherent piece now at least. I still love the idea of Claire!Castiel and John!Michael, and canon is really kind of an afterthought at this point.... (Sure it's canon, but it's SPN canon, that means something right?)

List of questions here.

Day 09. A fic that makes you happy

Otter of the Lord by skellerbvvt (Supernatural, Dean/Castiel)

Dean did not expect Cas to come back as an Otter, mostly because…who expects that? Who does that?


Day 10. A fic that reminds you of someone

Wild regrets, bloody sweats by Meadowsweet (Harry Potter, James/Remus/Sirius)

It reminds me of gwen7 because she has tried to get me into J/S in general and what we call "3S-ism" (J/R/S OT3) in particular. It almost worked. Almost.


Day 11. A fic that changed your perceptions of the characters

Lachesis by Miriam Heddy (Numb3rs, Larry/Charlie)

Not necessarily changed my perception, but it brought a whole level of depth to the both of them and the beginning of their relationship. For me, Miriam Heddy would always be synonymous with Numb3rs fanfiction.

Larry looked like he was going to crawl right out of his skin and break something again. He'd tucked his head down between his shoulders and was folding up on himself like a crumpled piece of origami paper, and Charlie suddenly longed to draw him out, suddenly ridiculously turned on by the certainty that it wasn't all just in his head, and that Larry had really wanted him.

Because he'd filed the whole thing away at the time as yet another misread social cue, and, over time, had forgotten about it. And though he'd known he was getting better at it everyday, he still sometimes got people very wrong, though never with any serious repercussions. Though he'd actually never had as much trouble with Larry as he had with some people. So he should have suspected. Maybe he did suspect. Maybe that's why he was still here, this many years later. Maybe it all came down to not misreading that moment—and maybe it was like the problem he began that year but couldn't solve until he'd learned enough to move through to the next steps. His intuitive leaps could only ever take him so far. He had to show his work.

格小子，枪版Inception我下了，质量的确糟糕，主要是光线很暗很暗。你看看有没有什么F/E段子特别想看的吧。

还有，你的LJ排版是什么名字？我找了半天没找到……

Edit: WTF? WTF? WTF CASS? WTFFF?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bwrfLWdnSLI&feature=player_embedded

This is....I don't even know what this is.

I don't.

Dean你……你这是干啥呢……你可以告诉我你这是在干啥吗？？？

Sam好可怜…………

另外，S5的花絮，简直把人笑活过来……



又，看到公主终于家暴驸马一次简直太爽了啊~~~>_< 我没看S5后半部是错误的！错误的！我要去补课！

Sam: What the hell happened to him?
Castiel: Me.

不过我还是得再说一次，Cas和Dean啊，简直就是战色的典型反面教材…………典型的！